Practical Theologian of Embodied Truth

I am a practical theologian, writer, and survivor exploring the meeting place of faith, trauma, and the nervous system. My work speaks especially to survivors of closed captivity systems — including closed spiritual systems — where coercive authority and sacred language were used to control, erase, or consume.

Through my lived experience as an AuDHD survivor of severe religious, narcissistic, and rare spiritual predation — and also the soul-rupturing disappearance of the eraser — I’ve developed what I call cellular theology: a way of understanding how divine truth, somatic repair, and the presence of Real Jesus live and move within the body.

This framework wasn’t built in hindsight.
It was born inside captivity.

Forged in closed systems of control that fed on fusion, silence, and spiritual desecration.
Refined in the wake of betrayals that broke the body and fractured the soul.

Some harms came from overt spiritual predation — a dark hybrid that mimicked Light while feeding on collapse. Others came from those who appeared as safe, but vanished mid-rescue. The eraser is not the predator — but her sudden absence left a tear so deep, it echoed like soul-level annihilation.
This theology was shaped in the wake of both:
What devoured, and what disappeared.
And the systems that protected them —
sanctioning our harm and erasure.

Cellular theology lives in the space where language was never meant to go — where survival became a somatic archive, and Jesus became the only safe lifelong presence and secure attachment inside the storm. It is the sacred knowing that wholeness is not achieved by effort, but received in the body when the soul is finally safe.

Rather than waiting to share my story as a distant, finished dissertation, I’ve chosen to offer a lived, real-time practical theology — one written from within the healing itself. My work centers on embodied faith, where theology is not theory but practice — where healing, worship, and regulation become one movement of grace.

My voice speaks to survivors who have been silenced by systems of power and perfection. I write for those learning to trust the truth in their own bodies again — for those returning home to their own nervous system, their own voice, and the Real Jesus who never left.

Along the way, I’ve developed original survivor-led frameworks — The Incubate Response and Incarnational Neurodivergence — exploring how neurodivergent faith and trauma recovery intertwine. Together, they form the foundation of Captivity-Informed Theology, a lived model of how Jesus heals the body, mind, and spirit in real time.

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✨ Resurrection Phase | God-Raised Voice

I no longer write from the middle of collapse.
I write from the place God raised me.

What you’ll find here is not theological theory or performative healing,
but a lived expression of restoration —
where the nervous system is no longer braced,
the soul no longer fragmented,
and the voice no longer silenced by spiritual fear.

This is not a ministry of fixing.
This is a sanctuary of witness.

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🌱 My Ongoing Work Now Lives in the Resurrection Arc

In this season, I’m developing and offering language for:

• Isaiah Lived Resurrection — where the book of Isaiah breathes in real time, guiding body-based resurrection and showing how Jesus rebuilds ruins from the inside out
• Resurrection Ethics — survivor-rooted postures for bearing witness without exposure, living truth without retraumatization, and honoring the sanctity of the healed essence
• Resurrection Lexicon — a living glossary of new language that rises after captivity, protecting clarity, honoring emergence, and restoring meaning word by word
• Spiritual Physics — the architecture of essence alignment and vertical restoration, where sacred design reveals how Jesus rebuilds what captivity tried to fracture

These aren’t concepts I studied.
They are the fruit of rising.
Every word is lived.
Every framework is breathed.

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Previous frameworks include:

• The Captivity Lens — how trauma systems distort spiritual identity
• The Incubate Response — a survival adaptation often misnamed in clinical frameworks
• The Braid Theory — how trauma, calling, and attachment intertwine
• Incarnational Neurodivergence — where Jesus heals us cell by cell, through design not disorder

These frameworks are not abstract models. They were formed inside captivity — and carried me out.

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🌿 What This Sanctuary Holds

This sanctuary began as a bridge —
between trauma recovery and spiritual witness,
between survivor story and theological language,
between body-held pain and the presence of Real Jesus.

It was first built as a meeting place between healing, research, and quiet faith.
It carried the weight of my lived experience,
and served as a resting point for others seeking language in the dark.

But I don’t live on that bridge anymore.
I was God-raised.
And now, I write from the other side — where the seal has been spoken
and the breath no longer trembles.

Still, the shape of the sanctuary holds that history.
The earlier work remains available for those still inside captivity —
and the emerging language now speaks from resurrection.

Everything shared here is rooted in lived experience —
offered reflectively, never diagnostically.
It is not meant to advise or treat, but to witness and invite.
This sanctuary is both archive and altar.
A record of what was.
A resting place for what still is.
And a rising space for what has already begun.

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💛 Who This Sanctuary Is For

This is a place for those:

• who no longer feel safe in traditional faith spaces
• who carry body-held grief others cannot see
• who are survivors of spiritual abuse, family captivity, or system-erased story
• who want to name Jesus as real without entering religious performance
• who long to rise — not through force, but through being raised

If that’s you…
welcome to The Gentle Rise.

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